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Friday, November 6, 2009

Fourth Week - 1

Failure:
Failure is one of the most common happenings in our lives. Only the magnitude of failure makes it bearable or unbearable. In either of the case, one has to fight through it in order to succeed. Failure's properties varies with person, for me they can be:
  1. Weakness : Failure all of a sudden makes me weak and vulnerable, suddenly I feel as if each and every eye is on me and I am the weakest link in the process.
  2. Delusions: It induces delusions in me, which means the difference between fact and fiction becomes hazy.
  3. Procrastination: I tend to waste more time, it forces me into the vicious cycle of procrastination.
  4. Depression: I go into deep depression and tend to dwell more and more about the failure I faced.
These properties are the most common in me. Good news is this that I can register them and can easily identify them.
Still, what happens when you fail in front of peers who took you as their sub-mentor? What happens when a teacher fails? Well, this situation is really embarrassing and puts more pressure on the failed one.
I was supposed to help few of my peers in a particular subject as they were not able to understand it. Somehow I grew overconfident and as a result I myself failed in the mid term exam of that course. This happening forced me into a lot of stress and pressure as
I was embarrassed heavily. Eventually I came out of it by removing all the emotions from my head and analyzing things in a realistic way i.e. by comparing my strengths and weaknesses in this subject.
This thing also made me realize that the best thing I am learning in VIU is how to be specific, how to be exact while doing an analysis and how to reflect it in clear words.
Acceptance of failure is the key, we must understand the need of right amount of confidence in our lives and how we should keep on re-assessing our true potential regularly.